Doing the podcast is a lot of fun, but it is also a lot of work. It feels like a part-time job and once a month becomes a full-time job. We are honest and open about the fact that we record our episodes a bit early. When it is time to record, transcribe, and make social media posts, it is a full-time job. When it is like a full-time job, it is like working a full-time job with my husband as my business partner and co-worker. For the most part, I enjoy working with Chad. He is easygoing, reliable, supportive, and we have a shared vision of the what we want the podcast to be. It is nice that we don’t have conflicts and work well together. I have to be honest and say without him as a partner in this, I don’t think I would have the spoons to do it at all. There are a lot of wild ups and downs. We have a pretty steady listenership that I am proud to say is really global. The rate of growth is a little bit slower than I would like, and I chalk that up to my month-long absence from social media. I have been out of spoons all month and really struggling with my HCP. I talk all about that in my October 11th post. Chad has been awesome and supportive per usual, but I can’t help the feeling that I’m letting him down.

That is what I was least prepared for. The feeling that I am not doing enough to honor his commitment and dedication to all aspects of our joint venture, but most notably our social media presences. I had no idea how much my HCP would impact my ability to socialize. That and my grueling work day. Recently, I have had to close my practice to intakes, which means no new clients for a while. New clients are the most work because I don’t know them so I don’t know how to prepare for them and how their sessions will run. Some clients enjoy talking and others don’t. Some clients have resources in Japanese and some don’t. New clients are extremely variable and, on top of my prolonged HCP attack, my client list almost turned over completely, meaning that most of my clients are new. My mind has been very busy as has my day, which means that I am spent by the end of it and have no time to be on social media and Chad has had to carry the weight of that on his own. He has done so without complaint and with tons of love. My goal is to come back to social media soon. Part of the HCP is the desire to push everyone away and withdraw socially. I am hoping it will pass soon. There is a part of me that really misses everyone I communicate with on social media. I do have some really great connections. None as great as the one I have with Chad. I am lucky to have him as my life partner and my business partner.